Time

I know, I know I've been MIA. Yes, I do realize it's been seven long months since I've written something substantial or really anything for that matter. It's not you, really, it's me. I was somewhere between fog and reality and just did not have time to get on here and blog. But alas, here I am with a not so profound posting but one that means more to me than you could possibly imagine.

It's been over a year since my precious husband left this earth. Over a year! It seems crazy that it's been a over a year. It's difficult to believe isn't it? Time certainly passes us by quickly. Months are minutes and moments are a blink of the eye.

Someone once told me that time heals all pain, I didn't believe them. How on earth can time mend a heart so badly broken that it seems beyond repair? How can time bring happiness that seemed forever lost? How? I didn't understand. I couldn't see that far ahead of me, all I could see was where I had been and the moment I was in.

Then it seems that as quickly as my life had changed, it started to become normal again. I could feel, I could smile and I was laughing. I was actually happy. My heart was no longer broken into pieces, it was healing. Time was healing me. TIME WAS HEALING ME! It was astounding to me. I think I'm still in shock but none-the-less, Now, I believe. I do, I really do. Time does heal pain.

My life is completely different now and I'm okay with that. I've learned to live it and somewhere along the way, I've miraculously started enjoying living it. Who would have ever thought that? Certainly not I. But here I am and I AM DOING IT! WOW, I really am doing it. I don't want to toot my own horn but by golly there is certainly some excitement in how far I've come.

Heart ache happens and it changes us but it doesn't have to change us in a negative way. If we can just walk through the pain, we can come out on the other side changed in a way we never even thought possible. Stronger, happier and perhaps even better than we ever imagined. If I can do it, I know you can do it!

Happy New year my friends (albeit a tad late) make this year count!